LIFTING TIMES

LIFTING TIMES
From Brooklyn to Manhattan and from Manhattan to Brooklyn as mundane as it can get. Its been 4 months in this country, I simply can’t love it. Although I have forced my selves to romance the most talked about city in the face of this earth- New York. All I do is commute from house to work, count some green bucks, drink some Irish scotch, smoke some Cuban cigars and pretend to be happy. Nothing can come close to being at home in your country. Being with your family, having friends by your side. Roam the city streets you know like the back of your hands, where people spit wherever they like, blow horns like there is some competition going on and sweat like animals. Boy! even the dirt of my country is more sacrosanct to me than any gold of this world.
I am working as a Software Architect in a software firm. All day I plant bugs in the software and ask others to fix them. In the end when the novices fail I fix the problem as if I were a genius. There are only two kinds of people in this world one who fool others and others who get fooled. I am the former. Apart from architecting bugs , I am not doing anything else in here. I am just waiting to be deported back to my country.
It was just another day when the sun rose. I caught a train to Manhattan, bought a hot dog in the Corner House , ate it as I walked till the entrance of my company. It was 9.30 AM on a Thursday morning. I took the lift to reach my office stationed at the 67th floor .The lift moves at around 20 ft/sec. It baffles me that how anybody can travel so fast in a small compartment that suffocates and scares the hell out of people, A beautiful invention is this LIFT. It moves up and down ,stops and starts at the press of a very senile looking button, people get on it and get off it wherever they want to. I had never imagined the same very lift would take me back.
When the lift reached the 38th floor everyone got off, but for one pretty women, whom I never bothered to look. The lift started, as soon as it got to the 58th floor ,it got stuck. I had a tingle in my stomach, feels good but strange to be stuck in a lift fitted with mirrors and a llady. I don’t know what the hell happened to this lift . I just turned to the mirror at my side as opposed to doing the obvious. In the mirror I saw a million reflections of myself and that lady. I suddenly felt like some one dug a large hole in my heart. My pulse was racing like a Ferrari in a Grand Prix. I just had caught a tinge of a image of someone whom I knew better than myself, someone who meant more than any word that could describe her, someone whom I never had seen or spoken to in the last 12 years. A millionth of a second is what it took for me to turn my head but the turn felt like a thousand years. I just gasped and saw her. She was as startled as I was. I just held on to myself. I kept an unassumingly calm composure. Over the years I have metamorphosised into being a very good actor. I can display the exact opposite emotion of how I really feel. Today was the test of the actor in me.
I was filled with a mixture of emotions. I asked her “Hi , How are you ?” She responded “ Hey Avinash ! How are you?”. We both had conveniently forgotten that we were stuck in a lift. She did much of the talking as I nodded, smiled, blushed and what not?.I just gazed at her. I knew her only through my dreams. In my dreamland her voice had remained as it would be of a 15 year old girl. She had stopped to grow in my dreams..Her voice had the sprinkle of a sprite. Like a Preface to her smile a dimple hiding in her cheeks would show up, then her hands would slide her hair behind her ears revealing those subtle little ear-rings. 'Twinkle in her eyes’ is an over used phrase but those words deserve her. The more I saw more beautiful she looked. She wasn’t a thunderbolt in the exact sense more like an evening drizzle. Only the connoisseurs’ could extrapolate the true essence of her beauty. My eyes were busy exploring her facial intricacies, never the less they acted well as if it weren’t gazing.

12 years earlier.
We both were studying in The Royal School in the suburbs of Bangalore. Navya and I were two inseparable creatures. We were the thickest of friends. She had a hell of a brain. She could think and do 12 different things all at once. I was the next best thing in that school and I could do half a thing at a time. I always believed that energy in the brain should be conserved and should not be used profusely. In my defense I can say that I was at least half as good as she was and had the potential to be like her. She would read all the books in the world, watch all the movies in the town ,play all the games that boys played. She would dance like a damsel and sing like an angel. She was the crowned princess of the school, and I was the geek who was always with her.
Things remained the same up until one day in the summer of 1996 she came running in the school corridor to meet me and said, “My father has got a job in U.S. and we are moving out in a week”. He had got a job in NASA. I was angry, I was angry at my country, I was angry at her father and at that new country to which she was going to move. I just held her shoulders very tight , their were tears in her eyes. I had an unbearable pain in my heart. Suddenly the world seemed so barren, the law of gravity no longer holding true. The whole world descended on me . I just had nowhere to go. She said “I feel very sad but I am helpless. I will still come back every now and then. After some years I would surely return and be here forever”. I just tried to convince her, to confuse her but nothing helped, the decision was made. She just kissed on my cheeks and went away. Saying ‘Good-bye’ isn’t exactly my forte.
Back to the Lift
Time had stopped for both of us. We sat down on the floor of the lift. We just re-acquainted ourselves with the current situation of our lifes.She stays in Houston, Texas and is happily married to a scientist working in NASA. She asked about my marital status. I answered “I got married to my new found love. She is the love of my life. Her name is Pooja, We both used to work together before. Currently she is back in India..Navya was happy to hear that.
It had been 1o minutes now and there was no sign of any help. Its only now that I took up my phone and made a few calls to get out of the lift. We both had remained oblivious to the fact that the lift was broke. In the meanwhile, I opened my laptop and showed her a poem that I had written after she went back. I said this was written then and belonged to her. She read that poem intently.
FIRST LOVE LASTS

When I saw u for the first time
my heart just stopped to rhyme
felt like some one sowed a seed
wanted to know what did it need

First time u gave that look
I was pushed to a nook
guessed it was just a crush
thoughts just seemed to rush

And the times u took my name
it didn’t sound all the same
Whilst u first held my hand
my pulse sunk like sand

you used to give me that smile
made me a prisoner of your jail
you laughed at my jokes
I blushed at your pokes
The thoughts we shared
and the colors we reared
said that we would be there
till the end of world stared.

But then TIME made us depart
All this ended before the start
The last time I saw you I knew
I will never again see you

I have never seen you since
become a fish sans fins
struggling to swim over you
drowned in this ocean of rue

Now your memories comes along in waves
And Leaves me cold in lonely caves
Now I see darkness even in sun
the moon also appears to burn

You've entered my veins so deep
all that I see is you in my sleep
you made my dreamland your home
I open my eyes to find myself alone

The Emptiness with which you have filled me
has left no room for others to be
I have made you grow inside
So that I can feel u r beside

You are my first love and my last
and it will last
even after the world is lost
----- U Wrote this.

I said “This was written a long time back and don’t know how much of it is true now. I am just showing this as this belongs to you. I am just shedding my baggage ha ha ”.
She understood what I meant. She was happy that I had moved on and did not remain a prisoner of past. She said” We both should be thankful to our lives and all the people around us that we have moved on with our lives. Whatever we share is too pleasant to label it with any predefined adjectives or nouns like love or friendship. A relationship that is wider than any friendship and deeper than any love. A pleasant memory, this is all that is and this is all that will be between the two of us”
I just could not agree more with what she said. As I have grown up, her image within me has metamorphosised from friendship to love to being this pleasant memory.But then you would ask me, why don’t you continue to be close to each other like some old friends. I beg to defer. “This is just how it is and that’s the way its going to be, between the two of us” and I kinda like it this way.
The lift door finally opened and we both happily bid adieu to each other and went our ways..

GURUPRASAD R
IBS SECTION F

The Jingle of a Jungle


An endless river kissing a seamless ocean?
A harmless moon eclipsing a mighty sun?
A floating island lost in a sea?
Aloof stands a leafless tree?

A smiling baby sitting alone?
A wounded soldier away from home?
A heart longing for the love of its life?
A messiah promising to end all strife?

Underneath present a labyrinth of facts
secrets hidden in these abstracts,
unraveling itself as time goes flying,
discovering the truths that were lying.

We change time or times change us or do they?
Miracles happen as often as u may
A bird swims and a fish flies
If no one cries, no one tries.

Everything under the sun is as simple as you want it to be.
Everything under the sun is as complex as you let it be.

- Guru

COME AGAIN for ONCE

COME AGAIN for ONCE

through the eyes of my dream
caught a tinge of her image
in a land where truth is as i seem
handing me a bit of vantage

u recognize me only here
ur voice i can dimly hear
as few thoughts I tried to weave
u take an abrupt leave

can't get out of this slumber
heart cant get more numb'er
this despair is so sweet
sans this I am incomplete

i eulogize my pain throu thee
i love this,may it forever just be..
wounds that need no heal
keeping things on an even keel

the hole in my heart is so deep
that if you take a peep
and simply look down
u'll never reach the ground

come again once more in my sleep
be one with my veins so deep

WHO AM I????

WHO AM I ----- ??????
I am a diamond who is gone crazy
around me no one is lazy
For me time is money
And I haven’t got any

The sun shines on me all through
Rains drench me leaving no clue

A bullet pierces my heart
A bomb explodes in my womb
tomorrow I promise a new start
so bury ur past in my tomb

I just run and run like hell
coz a milion dreams i need to sell
I cannot afford to sleep at night
coz for a million dreams I am the light

I am the seller of dreams
I am the buyer of extremes
I am the hyperbole of life
I am the metaphor of strife

GUESS WHO AM I --------------------




I am the city of god and daemons alike
MUMBAI is my name , hope on if u like

THE DOPE SONG

**** THE DOPE SONG****

Give me a Piece of Dope
laced with Light of Hope

after having which
will end my every little glitch

Make everything around me Surreal
I cannot stand anything real

I cant stand on my nails anymore
get me to the other side of the shore

Give me a Piece of Dope
laced with Light of HOpe

----------- GURU ( Jan 2009 )

YOU ARE BEAUTY-FULL

**** YOU ARE BEAUTY-FULL ****

The dimples on your face appear
like a preface to your smile
Then they just fade and disappear
favoring your cheeks for a while

As u caress your hair to thwart the breeze
revealing the subtle little ear rings
Bringing the kissing air onto its knees
honoring your aura it fades and sinks

Whilst your eye-lids close for a moment
to hide you from the staring sun
Time just stops its futile movement
confusing you for the early spring season

The times that you sing or talk
words and tunes feel the bliss
And in the rain you decide to walk
heaven is formed even in abyss

When all your senses play in a symphony
it brings the universe to a silent pause
To witness this moment of epiphany
All the oceans in world i shall cross.

----- GURU (May 2009 )

BOND GEM's BOND

Preface-
In my country we have to take the Law To our Hands
As, to lay our society doesn't give us a chance
all Vent up emotions forms a cluster of cloud
I had put every latent emotion on a silent mode

**** BOND , GEM's BOND****

All my life I had been a stag
about which,I had no options but to brag
had to end my overrunning teenage
It happened through this special bondage

I met someone with whom I could share
Secrets and jokes which no one else would care
In her eyes I could see the shine
which said I was hers and she was mine
Even in the new moon's shadow,
I could see her face glow.

With her I tied the nuptial knot
more baffling than I thought

I needed her
To Care like a mother
and share like a brother
console like a friend
walk till the worlds end.
kiss like a lover
Hurl me after every shower

she is the answer to all my fancies and fantasies
bringing all my curious frustrations to ease
I hope to complete her as she has done me
I hope this ecstasy may forever just be..

This is a seamless union of two souls
No one can substitute our distinct roles
The Journey from I to We has been surreal
But it is true, my senses can feel

There would be times of discomfort
to overcome,i wont spare any effort
Every river we shall cross together
Every mistake we shall forgive of each other
Every wound we shall heal
Every ripened fruit we shall peel

Some pains are sweeter than pleasure
Marriage is one such treasure

I promise you in the pink of my health
or in the brink of my death
I will forever live in your breath
--------We = U + I
-------- GURU ( May 2009)

SO WHAT EVEN IF I GET

****SO WHAT EVEN IF I GET ****

World is a One big pool
survival is its only rule
you got to paddle
to escape the comfort of cradle
you got to swim
to the societal whims
you got to float
in the despair of a boat

Dont go deep for you will sink
Dont remain shallow for you wont think
Cant stay in the middle
If you want to solve this puzzle

There will come a time of the war
Enemies cant be seen near or far
Inside you Devil and Divine are intertwined
Who is What and is where ,you go to find
darkness will shine on your face
Light will arrive after that phase

At Times,
you got to cry and smile
till you are senile
till you are sterile

Then Some day with your Will, you will win
after loosing everything you had seen
you realize and stop to sin

And then this world you will get
showing its value, the end is met

This is what ,is called life
it is as true as a lie
but dont fret ,As there is life after life

-------------GURU (Apr 2009)

COMETH ME HATH ME

**** COMETH ME HATH ME *****


For Once I want to alienate myself from me
So that I can just see
How without me I can Be

Then,

I see God inside,
OH! Its here that you reside

My - self I am loosing,
have got problems in Choosing

Please Stay awake in me as I have been long asleep
All my whims have seeped in real deep

Cleanse me of all my vices and Sins
Walk me or Fly Me or Give me your Fins

----- GURU ( Mar 2009)

GET ME OUT

**** GET ME OUT ****

there is a lump in my throat but i manage to smile
there is a limp in my leg yet i walk another mile
there is a hole in my heart which i try fill
there is a while in a moment when time is still

then I think but I am lost in a blink
then I write but there is no ink
then I sing but I forget the tune
then I gaze at the flaring Black moon

I want to hide but I cant run
I want to forget what I have done
I want to live for one more time
I want to find the reason to rhyme

Just get me out of all of this
Just get me something that is bliss

-------- GURU ( Feb 2009)

GOD - COME ON

**** GOD- Come on *******

God where are you my sun
it s me calling why do u shun
throw me light for now its dark
am afraid of being eaten by the shark

don't you understand what i say
or it is one of Ur tricks that u play
the eclipse is lasting long
would u come if I wrote another song

I cant do wat I should
would u let me out of this wood
I will wait,till all this is done
I am not going to walk until u make me run

I might seem happy in my world of gloom
build a window to my room
you are my gravity pull me back
my light has now turned black

I have gone so blind
I don't know what to find
If you are inside breathe in me
I am decaying cant u see
I am numb dumb and lazy
gods u are turning me crazy

Save me from myself
for once be your self

---- GURU ( Oct 2008)

I WANT TO BE

**** I WANT TO BE ******

i want to be scent of ur perfume
want to be ur aura in ur room

i want to be the mouse that u scroll
want to be touched till I am sore

i want to be the comb of ur hair
to be there with the silken rare

i want to be the spoon u lick
to get inside ur tongue so quick

i want to be the clothe that u wear
to touch u with utmost care

i want to be eyelashes on your eyes
want to catch all your lies

i want to be ur sweater in the cold
want to heat ur body when I hold

i want to be the sleep in ur eyes
be in your dreams when you rise

All I want ,All i want is
I want to Be your soul

----- GURU ( Mar 2008)

LOVE DISEASE- DOESNT CEASE

****LOVE DISEASE- DOESNT CEASE****

The sweetness in you has given me DIABETES
You have taken my life for a long lease
u are a CANCER growing in me thick and fast
without u i wud not be able to last

thoughts of u come back like COLD in the night
I freeze and wait for the heat of morrows light
u CLOT my blood everywhere
taring my skin till I am bare

I feel I am going to die
but to live I shall try

u've given me AMNESIA for everything else
I cant remember even the sound of bells
u turned me into a SCIZOPHRENIC
Illusionating you is my only trick

I feel I am going to die
but afraid for u might cry

the only cure for this disease is my death
but I will continue to live in ur breath
-----------GURU ( FEB 2008)

MY FRIEND- The BEST

******** MY FRIEND- The BEST*********

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char I, friend;

Initial vibrations were very right
Became friends at first sight
In times of spring and fall
You were there for me, my Pal

You come in vibrant shades and color
Conquer and fill me with vigor
I found your aura very attractive
Made me so much more creative
you are a blend of million perfections
giving wings to my Imaginations

They say,
A friend in NEED is a friend indeed
For me,
You are a friend I WANT when I FAIL or SUCCEED

Sometimes you make me laugh
Till I choke and start to cough
You did wipe my tears in rain
And hid all my pain and bane

I asked my girl to meet you once
never realized , why she shuns
She hated and hated you so much
Chose you and left her in lurch

While ( you are close to me)
{
I can dream with my eyes wide open
stop worrying about what's to happen?
Mind becomes lighter than light
I can see whats wrong and what's right?

With you when I ride bike or car
I smash everything on the tar
never have been caught by a cop
all the signals in the city, we hop
THEN
My hands starts to shiver
But speech remains clever
After painful time u put me to sleep
Reduce all implosions in heart to a beep
Letting go all emotions suppressed
U serve this soul depressed
}
While( U Me and DRUGS)
{
Those nights in the terrace
Felt like the brightest of days
Listening to PINK FLOYD's music
Hallucinations, made the time tick

Felt like I was gliding over the moon
Floating in the space like a lost balloon
I pushed the moon to a edge
Sun was starting to sledge

I didn't want the night to glide
Followed the moon to the other side
Then I woke up in my bed
Feeling sick and mouth red
}
Now u have,
left me in this cradle of death
gasping for every little breath
u cut short my life to an end
I prefer to be killed, rather by a friend
}
exit();

So my friend guess who is my best PAL here,
Its my SCOTCH WHISKY RUM AND BEER

MY -GIRL - MY GIRL

*** MY -GIRL - MY GIRL****

when I see you with some one
I long to have you as my only one
when I HOLD you as mine
all my worries fly in a line

And then we kis lip to lip
my heart beat gives a skip
I suck the air from ur mouth
pull you into my throat

No ounce of breath has ever been so pure
you are my love that is for sure
my lungs are filled with the life you sprout
you have me fully in your clout

my heart now beats faster than ever
hands and legs start to shiver
you entered my blood hence to brain
oh sweet heart you eased all my pain

without you I never will be fine
promise me you will always be mine
so my friend guess who is MY-Girl here





no U CANT, its MY- CIGARETTE MY- DEAR.

----- GURU

FIRST LOVE LASTS

************FIRST LOVE LASTS*********

When i saw you for the first time
My heart just stopped to rhyme
felt like some one sowed a seed
wanted to know what did it need

First time you gave that look
I was pushed to a nook
guessed it was just a crush
thoughts just seemed to rush

And the times you took my name
it did'nt sound all the same
Whilst u first held my hand
my pulse sunk like sand

You used to give me that smile
made me a prisoner of your jail
You laughed at my jokes
I blushed at ur pokes

The thoughts we shared
and the colors we reared
said that we wud be there
till the end of world stared.

But then TIME made us depart
All this ended before the start
The last time i saw u i knew
I will never again see u

I have never seen u since
become a fish sans fins
struggling to swim over you
drowned in this ocean of rue

Now your memories comes along in waves
And Leaves me cold in lonely caves
Now I see darkness even in sun
the moon also appears to burn

But u've entered my veins so deep
all that I see is U in my sleep
you have made my dreamland your home
I open my eyes To find myself alone

The Emptiness with which you have filled me
has left no room for others to be
I have made you grow inside
So that I can feel u r beside

You are my first love and my last
and it will last
even after the world is lost
------- GURU

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Hey You,

Here in you will find a bit of my Poetry,Short stories.. few thoughts and views.
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Regards,
Guru